Ive encountered teo people who have had similar conflicts with reality this past week.  One day i thought well its not sychitzophrenia and it's not a movie of my life , so i pretended i thought it was one so it could be the other maybe rather than being what it is, where each memory of it erasrs its prevelamce over my thoughts, lessens the impact of the previous memory of its prevalence in the oyou know, the clouds in my thoughts, so much so that i started missing it,  the romance of it