like a tornado

It was so unbelievable
I couldn't even get mad.
I laid there with her,
just staring up.

"That was the stupidest thing you could have done.
The worst.
Do you realize what you just did to him?"

She didn't respond
and I didn't turn my head.
The shock of silence
contnued to fill the air.

I spoke softly,
in a voice as though I discovered something.
fuckin bitch
fuckin bitch

"What did you call me?"
We didn't turn our heads.

Fuckin bitch.
I reaffirmed in a normal tone -
soft, but not weak.

She didn't respond.
I knew if she cried, it wouldn't be for me.
We cuddled and we slept.
It's hard to identify crazy.

Instant gratification

She knows me well.
She's done her reading,
Done her research.

She makes sly allusions
of silent thoughts and neverminds.

She knows I'm over my head,
naked and incapable of long term plans -
She slithers around my neck.

I feel so...happy!

I haven't searched for a picture of you,
Can't even bear to type in your name,
nor pronounce it in my head.

You are embedded into my dreams.
I feel like you're safe from me.

Our relationship has never been so healthy.

entropy

She doesn't try hard anymore.
I think she knows I don't like her cooking.

I don't know why I don't compliment her more.
Some nights, I know she's glowing
If I let it slip and ask for seconds.

She's like a child,
like a dog.
and it's so awful,
and it's so sad.

I don't know if she's sick,
or I made her sick.

We're both sick -
we're sick.
In the evenings,
the lights are dim,
the TV's droning,
huge and blue.

...



These old fat fuckin white men -
some can barely piss -
with driplets on their suits
and sweat on their brow;
their only bulge from their belly
and their fat briefcases,
and cowboy fantasies.

...

Don't let me fall in love with you, baby.
You'll never get rid of me.
I will be on my drunken horse,
under the moonlight.
Come out!
Come to me, my dear.
Bring me some sandwiches!

Under the moonlight,
I'll sing, I'll sway
songs of love and hate.
Roast beef and peppercinis:
Baby, if you take me down the street,
they have a microwave.

fatal flaw


A leaf withered
  and crushed a bug
 into the ground;
   into Nothingness:
What's his sacrifice?

His perspective ends.
He would have to become
Presumptuous -

His arrogance.

...

I love to hold your throat, I guess.
I hope you try to run away.
I get protective of you, baby
when I share you with other men.

You came back to me!
You have much more tact than me.
Let me wipe you down,
my sexy slithering
white snake.

...

Hence, the ocean and motel
we swim in fish and current
she's electric light

If her Man don't mind, 
she's warm oysters.
My only portal to you. Why do you even come around? I've tried everything I can to hurt you. I've tried everything to get your attention. Why do you even indulge me? You won. You won a long time ago. There's somethimg I want you to know. Not that I love you, Not that love and hate all come from the same root, Not Nathaniel Hawthrone, Not the scarlet stigmatized wretch, but that I have 12 bottles of Rolling Rock, And I'm going to drink them all and listen to Radiohead, before I go to work.
I can't look. My world will crumble. I'm doing fine with my house of cards, one day at a time, yada yada.

guilty, fuckin bitch, she must be racist

Your honor, as I have already forefeited my bail amount, and even murderers and child molestors can plead Not Guilty, I believe I have the right to plead my case. My argument consists of three main points. Num 1, this  being the least important, yet still worthy of consideration.  I am not a Glendale resident, I have never been cited for smoking.  I believe my bail amount is unreasonable, to say the least. Num 2, if you'll indulge me, your honor, I would like to pose a question to you so I know how to shape the rest of my defence.  Would define the 2nd floor of the Glendale Galleria parking structure an "enclosed space?" If so, according to Glendale code 8. 52. 060, which prohibits smoking in enclosed spaces, I would like you to consider an experiement:  put one person in an enclosed space with only cigarette smoke.  Put another person in an enclosed space with a running vehicle, and see which individual dies first, and if you dont know the answer dont you think there should a definitive scientific answer? or provide all of us with definitive proof of who dies first.(((((((Fresh air ordance makes no mention of any studies regarding the dissipitation rate of cigarette smoke in the air, compared to the dissipitation rate of the toxins emitted by the exhaust of vehicles, to justify the reasoning behind citing an individual for smoking and not citing him for, using his Hummer as boombox while he leaves the air condition on  driving, or leaving his air conditioning on in his car while he uses it as a boomboxin that same space.)))))))))))))(This law and my citation are completely arbitrary.    If Im cited for smoking in the 2nd floor of the Galleria Parking Structure, then every individual who drives their vehicle through that space should be cited, on account of the CO?, Benzene - a cancer causing toxin that leads to leukimia, And other toxic fumes their vehicle emits.    This citation is completely arbitrary.   "i refute the validity of my citation" If you disagree with my reasoning that if a parking garage and the GG parking structure are both considered "enclosed spaces, then you're admitting  Num 3, while i recieved my citation, i submitted my licence to the citing officers.  My record came back clean.  I don't understand why my body was being patted down for drugs or contraband as people walked by.  All for a smoking citation?  I was offended and humiliated.  And I refute the validity of this citation. Do you agree or disagree that I was cited for smoking within, near, or 20 ft from an open air space in the Glendale Galleria Parking Structure? 2222.  Do you agree or disagree that a garage is an enclosed space? 11111. Do you agree or disagree that the Glendale Galerriaparking Structure is an enclosed space? 3. Do you agree that if you stand iwithn an enclosed space with only cigarette smoke in the air, eventually, the smoke and its toxins will have detrimental effects to your health and may even factor into a premature death? 4. Do you agree that if you stand in an enclosed space with only the fumes from a running vehicle permeating the air you breath, that fumes and its toxins will have detrimental effects to your health and may eventually kill you?  (study of car exhaust fumes) 5?  Do you agree its a common method of suicide to sit in an a running vehicle with a tube linking the exhaust of that vehicle inside your car, with the window open? Do you consider that an enclosed space? Your honor, according to the testimony provided by my citing officer, I was cited for smoking in an enclosed space, the term defining both the GG parking structure and even a small garage.  And that standing such enclosed spaces with only cigarette smoke or vehicle exhaust fumes in the air will harm a human being's quality of life. Fresh air ordance makes no mention of any studies regarding the dissipitation rate of cigarette smoke in the air, nor do they compare the dissipitation rate of cigarette smoke in the air with the dissipitation rate of the toxins emitted by the exhaust of vehicles, to justify the reasoning behind citing an individual for smoking and not citing him for,  driving, or leaving his air conditioning on,  his car in that same space. Need to read Fresh Air Ordinance. 3 copies of Fresh Air Ordinance  3 Copies of 852060 3 copies of my 6 Questions blowing smoke in achilds face, child walking behind the reving exhaust of my car If this many americans smoke or dont smoke, How many americans drive or dont drive cars. Is there any mention? Why dont they use that as a justification. I have not highlighted any portion of the Fresh Air Ordinance which compares the dissipitation rate of cigarette smoke over the dissispitation rate of vehicle humes, because i have found no such mention.  Until then, i refute the validity of this law. America needs cars, not cigarettes.  Exactly, compare the stock prices of PM and MO to the prices of F and GM prolly should've shaved

notes from da underground

yo yo yo i be edgar be All the girls know i drive a bentley They my biscuits My oreos My evening condensed milk and tea they hang around me like yo yos they think they my Sonias they go baby can I ride w/ thee? but, but - bitch, I'm done with Sonias, i says to her, i says, this ain't Shakespearean you wanna roll? You gotta blank on these! bitch, don't blank with me ill make you blank my blank and blank my blank You'll be "it's so Scrumptious mumptious Think i'll have some more of these but here i am, in the hollywood hills smokin bowls, spittin truth, Who would fight Mike Tyson for a million and two? Creatin ideas for reality Tv Yea who would get in the ring For a million and three? uh! bitch. These fuckin Spainards, man. Can't ever watch a movie without a violatile love affair. Don't need that shit.

freefall

Im going to die someday,
my bones
are the only thing
keeping my organs in place.